Somebody text me semalam. Lawak tul. Somebody who thought Im a man. Tak la lawak sgt. Aku punya mind fuck sampai nak terlanggar auntie naik basikal.
Lawa. Lawa perempuan yg ganti aku.
Alasan je la yg itu ini kau kata
Hit me very hard bila realized the truth
Gila idiot all the way
Heh. Tapi tu org ckp, once a thief, always a thief
Once a womanizer, always a womanizer
Aku rilek je ni. Tak melatah lagi bgtau the truth kat perempuan baru kau
Tuhan tu tau aku tak move on completely lagi,Dia letak la lagi 1 ujian
Suruh aku faham,Dia sayang aku
Sebab tu jauhkan kau. Di datangkan rasa bosan dekat kau.
Pernah kena lagi teruk,tapi tak lah sehina ni aku rasa. Mind fuck all the way semalam
Selamat ada kawan. Dengan baju bridesmaid wedding dia. Dengan conversation berkesimpulan kawan-nak-kenen-kat-aku tu bodoh
Kau macam baik. Rupanya topeng setan. Anjing.
26 tahun hidup. Aku bebal tak sudah
Tapi Tuhan itu ada kan. Jangan sangka buruk dengan Dia. Sebab semua benda dtg dengan hikmah
I’ll raise up. As usual lah. As I said before,dia memang tak kan kemana
Rumah yg dia huni,dia tak syukur,tak setia,tak bahagia.
Nak kemana macam tu punya gaya.
“I guess you could say I was confused when you said you didn’t want me Because you always told me from the day we met you won’t leave me at all . Leave me,is what I keep asking you to do. And now you only left when it suits your time. A few weeks gone now and I’m doing fine. As always. Now go away with your wish that I will find my ‘someone’ one day. Only mums allowed to wish me that. Go away”—
"Most importantly, she grew tired of the mindless chatter and stale promises.
Growing to be accustomed to the idea of solitude, she constantly craved for it - like a slow sinful addiction ready to devour her at any given opportunity.
And with time, she realized that she could walk steadily without any form of dependence.
That was what scared her the most. It was all or nothing.”
10 things I did this year 1. Graduated from my part-time studies 2. Accident—again 3. PULAU PERHENTIAN!! the friends that get away do come back(as e same person as before) 4. Cut loose so-called-guy-with-oh-I-so-won’t-let-you-go 5. finished working as tutor at 2 tuition centre..blessed the rizq given from Allah
6. Finished paying loan
7. Awin’s e-day
8. Hannah’s getaway to Sabah
9. *I really cant think of anything right now*
10. Ohh my bilogical dad passed away last year where we discovered only on February *family’s drama begun*. So we settled the issue with pejabat tanah.
Lawyer:"Okay...no. You don't think I deserve your attention."
Mark Zuckerberg:"I think if your clients want to sit on my shoulders and call themselves tall, they have the right to give it a try, but there's no requirement that I enjoy sitting here listening to people lie. You have part of my attention - you have the minimum amount. The rest of my attention is back at the offices of Facebook, where my colleagues and I are doing things that no one in this room, including and especially your clients, are intellectually or creatively capable of doing. Did I adequately answer your condescending question?
“People say I love you all the time - when they say, ‘take an umbrella, it’s raining,’ or ‘hurry back,’ or even ‘watch out, you’ll break your neck.’ There are hundreds of ways of wording it - you just have to listen for it, my dear.”—The Curious Savage, John Patrick (via jesusfuckmechrist)
Tak pernah seranap ini. Sebab tak pernah sedalam ini. And I’m proudly announce I’m a fool. Those last words uttered “kau ni serabut”. Made me delete some apps in my phone. Cutting all strings between us. Insha Allah He will ease this process. Sebab dah lama sangat ini yang dia nak. I’m just making his wish came true. Sorry for the shouting anyway,bagi aku rasa puas. Kalau tak hanging all the way meluap-luap marah tu. and I realized I’ll never truly love a man maybe;since I can did the shouting and all.
Apa lagi,bantal dan katil la solution untuk masalah broken-hearted ni. And maybe food,some friends, and busying myself with extra classes and all. Small probs lah..dah practice being alone since past 2 weeks.
“Do not speak about your money in front of a poor person. Do not speak about your health in front of a sick person. Do not speak about your power in front of a weak person. Do not speak about your happiness in front of a sad person. Do not speak about your freedom in front of a prisoner. Do not speak about your children in front of an infertile person. Do not speak about your mother and father in front of an orphan. Because their wounds cannot bear more.”—Imam Ali ibn abi Taleb (via hadeiadel)
I still love him.
But I don’t want to love him any more.
I don’t want to hurt any more. Please
Help me forget.
Please help me to let it go.
Please help me let him go.”—Bruce Almighty (via wordsthat-speak)
So that’s it. That is all it takes for you to turn your back from me. Bluntly shouting words while I’m trying to make you understand the situation. With me loud-speakering my phone. Those were the last words you chose for me to hear from you. Yey!
I gave myself a week. Sekarang boleh lah termangu lagi. Macam hilang arah lagi. Mau ada yg park kereta by roadside esok sambil statik termenung. Maybe la…Maybe I’m being the most grateful human being esok. Siapa tau. Ni pun macam dah ok bila taip benda ni. It’s okay sayang,sebab this is what I want. You’re going to be okay. Repeat sayang,this too shall pass. Memories of you will be gone by anytime soon.
p/s: awak ada diri awak.work hard,play hard.mingle around.kawan dengan orang yg nak kawan dengan awak.yg tengking kata tak nak cari awak lagi awak jgn cari dia tau..awak ada awak.awak ada mak,adik & abah tau..byk benda awak kena syukur.look back once a while and say syukur.awak boleh.awak selalu boleh